Compensation

This movie just never fails to make me cry.So here I am,...

Wed, 22 May 2013 03:55:19 +0800

This movie just never fails to make me cry.
So here I am, watching an all-time-favorite of mine, Friends with Benefits. Never gets old. Some think of it na puro lang you-know-what, but it’s not. It’s a love story, and I needed a good cry, kaya I had to watch it. I’m a sucker for romcom movies okay. It’s been a tough month, really. Usually isa or dalawang araw lang okay na ako ulit eh, but this has been going on for more than a week, and I am in need of repair. Idk why I can’t get it out of my head. I’ve tried to read books, sleep, have marathons and watch movies, but none of it seem to work anymore. So I’ve had talks with Jerico, Jan, JC and Karl. Pero not as a group. I talk to them individually, mapa-text, viber, chat or skype. And without a doubt, they do make me feel better. I’m still not “together” with myself, pero talking with them eased some of the pain I felt. Nyawww, you guys are the best.. I know, I kind of sound cliche. But seriously. Am not joking.. :)

So it’s 3:50AM. I wonder what time I’ll be waking up today..

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Wed, 22 May 2013 03:27:50 +0800

It’s not the million of thoughts I worry about, I can deal with them, it’s that one thought that can...

Wed, 22 May 2013 03:10:41 +0800

It’s not the million of thoughts I worry about, I can deal with them, it’s that one thought that can occupy so much space in my mind; it could drown me down. How just one thought can bring out my insecurities, fears, and worries is quite terrifying. How just one thought can push every other thought out so easily, like the feared bully on the playground. I’m not afraid of having too many thoughts, I’m afraid of having one that can nearly destroy me, mentally.

hello po ate!! :D

Wed, 15 May 2013 12:10:25 +0800

high! :)

To the person who gave me so much to remember.

Wed, 15 May 2013 11:13:34 +0800

porsheohporshe:

Cheers to you. I wanna thank you for giving me enough lessons in life. I have a feeling that this isn’t the end, but if it is, maybe this it’s the perfect time to summarize all the beautiful and awful ones we had. You’re one pain in the ass, very much, everybody knows that, you know that, but cheesy as may seem I fell for that. But, our bond was awesome, it was epic. Things just fall apart in time but things mend in time as well. I’m writing this not to make things harder for us, I’m writing this to end things in a right way. Or prolly just for the sake of letting you know that I don’t hate you. Cross my heart.

There are bigger things in life that we can still do without holding each others back. And, I won’t ever want you to miss all the opportunities that will help you grow as a person. I never wanted to be the brick wall in someone else’s life, even to the ones I had before who were pretty much confused to what I was thinking and I’m glad that you were thinking the same thing. I’m sure they’re in a better place now, better situation, better people. I want that for you.

The world’s kind of a big question mark to us now, a mystery that will unfold in time. Let usstay still, thus let us not make life idle. I might just put a spice in life and believe temporarily in serendipity while I sit on a coffee shop and be like that lady in 500 Days of Summer, not necessarily waiting but eventually finding. Would it be you or would it be somebody else? I don’t know. Nobody knows. That’s the catch of this story, knowing the unknown in the right time. Isn’t that something to look forward to?

I don’t want this story to end up like in Katy Perry’s song ‘The one that got away’ worse be like the concept of ‘Thinking of you.’ Nuh-uh. No. No more heart crushing bullshit please.

I wish you well, love. I wish us well. :)

Sophia! Where will you study?

Tue, 14 May 2013 10:07:42 +0800

Hiiii! Mapua :)

bestpretender: Pakiramdam ko, limot ko na ang lahat pero sa...

Mon, 13 May 2013 02:05:00 +0800

bestpretender:

Pakiramdam ko, limot ko na ang lahat pero sa panahong nakikita kita o naaalala, bumabalik lahat ng sakit. Nararamdaman ko yung unti-unting pagdurog sa puso ko ng walang dahilan. Yung pakiramdam na nahilom na siya ng paunti-unti pero ng makita ka, parang binasag siya ulit. Back to zero. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Bakit ako nasasaktan pa? Bakit sumasariwa yung sugat sa puso ko? Nasasaktan parin ako. Sobra.

Alam ko malabo, at alam ko na mahirap akong intindihin lalo na pag tungkol sa ganyang bagay, kaso kung tutuusin, okay na naman kasi talaga ako eh. Hindi ko masasabi na hindi na ako nasasaktan, kasi masakit parin talaga lalo na sa sitwasyon. Pero ano bang magagawa ko kung ganyan talaga. Ganito tayo eh. But hey, it’s amazing how we managed to be friends despite everything. Cool nga natin eh! Kung sa iba, feeling ko sobrang bitter na nila at nagmumurahan pa. Tayo, eto, friends…. :> Ay haha. Pero de, seryoso talaga, ayos naman tayo eh diba? Heehehehe. :)) Haynako haha. Pero sa totoo lang. Hindi ko man pinapahalata sayo, sana alam mo na kahit papano, nasasaktan parin ako.

S, U and Z :)

Fri, 10 May 2013 21:58:00 +0800

S. A random fact about myself
- Sobrang enjoy maghugas ng pinggan.. Promise :))

U. Where I want to be right now
- Okay na dito sa kwarto, masaya humiga eh :))

Z. How are you
- Ako ay masaya, pagod-ish pero bearable. Hehehehe >:D<

Tadhana - Up Dharma Down (Cover)May awkward silence na, may...

Tue, 07 May 2013 22:04:00 +0800

Tadhana - Up Dharma Down (Cover)
May awkward silence na, may piyok factor pa. AHAHAHAHHA ANOBER. Nakakabagot kasi okay haha. Hi guys =))

Spent 05072013 with these lovely ladies. ☺

Tue, 07 May 2013 20:14:00 +0800

Spent 05072013 with these lovely ladies. ☺

Kasi I made an account sa Skype for the Solid people, kaso hindi...

Mon, 06 May 2013 10:01:00 +0800

Kasi I made an account sa Skype for the Solid people, kaso hindi naman kami matuloy tuloy kasi naaagawan ng pc yung iba, and some of us don’t know how to use it pa. Then sinabe ko kay Jan na may skype na ako, and sabi nya mag-usap kami dun. Look! :)

If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're supposed to be there..

Wed, 01 May 2013 01:04:55 +0800

And since I can’t seem to get you out of my life, then maybe you’re supposed to be there as well.. Though you’ve been consistently inconsistent with me, still, salamat, kasi we’re still in each others lives, and all is well between us. :)

Oo, sinaktan mo ako, kaya sinubukan din kitang saktan pabalik.Susubukan ko palang, kinarma na ako....

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 00:29:07 +0800

Oo, sinaktan mo ako, kaya sinubukan din kitang saktan pabalik.
Susubukan ko palang, kinarma na ako. Wow lang eh? Haha! Gagawin ko pa lang, pero naunahan na ako ng karma. Siguro nga hindi ako yung dapat na maghiganti sa’yo. Baka may ibang tao na gagawa nun sa’yo sa ibang paraan, okaya naman ay ikaw din mismo ang makagawa nun sa sarili mo. Maraming possibilities eh. Hindi rin naman kasi kaya ng konsensya ko na saktan ka no. Ang hirap kaya, lalo na kung ayaw mong may nasasaktan sa mga kaibigan mo. Sobrang hindi ko kaya. Bahala na yung karma sa’yo. Pero sana hindi naman ganun kalala or something. :( :))

This is hopebird. Hopebird is a little project idea of mine....

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 22:38:26 +0800

This is hopebird.

Hopebird is a little project idea of mine. He’s transparent, and I’m giving permission to use this as you want as long as you don’t profit from it.

I want you to put hopebird on your blog (either reblog this or take the image and put it on your blog) if you are a SAFE ZONE. That means anyone who has this logo on their blog will not judge you based on your race, age, religion, sexuality, ability, gender, appearance, or anything. If you see hopebird, it means that this person is open to talk to and offer you support if you need it.

iMessage?

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 10:53:00 +0800

It’s sophiagoingsolo@yahoo.com :)

Somebody owes me donuts, hwuahwuahwua :>Spent the afternoon...

Tue, 23 Apr 2013 15:40:00 +0800

Somebody owes me donuts, hwuahwuahwua :>
Spent the afternoon with Stephen gay. Ay, joook, hindi sya gay haha. Hohol-ed. Sobrang late na sya sa training nya, haha!

Having a HIMYM marathon.I can’t believe how relevant this...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 21:21:58 +0800

Having a HIMYM marathon.
I can’t believe how relevant this scene is.. Medyo masakit parin hanggang ngayon.

Kung sino pa yung pinagkakatiwalaan mo, siya pa yung magbbring down sayo.Hindi ko maintindihan kung...

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 14:47:00 +0800

Kung sino pa yung pinagkakatiwalaan mo, siya pa yung magbbring down sayo.
Hindi ko maintindihan kung pano niyo nagagawa yun, lalo na kung lahat ng bagay at lahat ng sekreto mo sakanya mo nakkwento. Alam niya lahat ng pinagdaanan mo. Lahat nung sakit na naramdaman mo, lahat nung masayang nangyare sayo; lahat lahat sakanya mo kinekwento. Kaibigan mo yan eh. Sobrang laki ng tiwalang binigay mo sakanya. Akala mo okay lang. Akala mo lahat ng bagay pwedeng ikwento. Akala mo mapagkakatiwalaan mo siya. Akala mo hindi nya ipagsasabi sa iba. Akala mo siya na yung laging nandyan para sayo. Akala mo..

Yan ang hirap eh. Ang dami dami mong inakala.
Hirap na hirap ka na ngang makahanap ng tao na mapagsasabihan mo ng lungkot, sakit, ligaya at lahat ng nangyayare sa buhay mo, at kung kailan naman binigay mo na yung tiwala mo, dun ka pa mabibigo. Magtatago ka na naman sa sarili mo. Wala ka nang pagsasabihan. Babalik ka dun sa pagiging malungkot at mapag-isa na ikaw. Matatakot ka nang magtiwala. Hindi ka na magsasabi ng opinyon at ng mga nararamdaman mo. Ganyan eh. Kung nag-isip ka lang pala sana bago ka magtiwala… Ang sakit, sobra.

“Ang paghihintay sa isang bagay o tao na alam mong hindi naman...

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 19:38:00 +0800

“Ang paghihintay sa isang bagay o tao na alam mong hindi naman darating pero naghihintay ka parin — Nag-iinarte, nagmamaganda at nagpapacute edition”. =))))))))

Sige Sophia, ipush mo yan. Pasensya na sa pambubulabog ko sa dash. Medyo naiinis lang kasi talaga ako ahehehehe. =)))))

I just love books and libraries and the smell of books and complete silence except the sound of...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 09:21:10 +0800

I just love books and libraries and the smell of books and complete silence except the sound of someone flipping the pages and i just love words and paper and fictional characters and all the feelings my destiny is to live inside a bookstore